I wish I had the HTML savvy to scroll my credits in Star Wars style, but alas, you'll have to read them in the old fashioned text-book way. All Songs Recorded on GarageBand.
Let the Purple
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
With input by the Creative Writing Workshop
Miss Blues's Child
Words - Langston Hugues
Music and Vocals - Eti
Life is Fine
Words - Langston Hugues Music and Vocals - Eti
Too Cowardly (To Be a Martyr)
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
Smoke
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
Daughter of G-d
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
Where Angels Stand
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
The Wholeness of a Broken Heart
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
6,000,000 Hearts
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
At this point, you are getting bored with the credits, they seem trite and repetitive, but stick with it and they'll get interesting.
Watermelon
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
Tiger
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
Sound Effects from YouTube
Bubble
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
Sound Effects from too many sites to remember
Holy
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
The Way I Am
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
So Far in2 the Dream
Words and Music - Eti
Vocals - Eti
Backing Vocals Guest - Rivka P.
Percussion - Rivka P.
Silent ALL These Years
Words and Music - Tori Amos
Vocals - Eti
You Can't Rely on Fingernails
Words, Music, and Vocals - Eti
Backing Vocals and Social Commentary - Rivka P.
With input by the Creative Writing Workshop
Sunday, December 16, 2007
End Credits
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
Iron Woman Revealed
Click on the Iron Woman Comic TM for a larger view. For a copy of this one-of-a-kind comic, send me a post. The first 10 posting people will get a free copy of Iron Woman's Autobiography "There's FE in the Feminist in me." If you look hard (or hardly look), there's an Iron Woman in every one of us.Monday, December 10, 2007
Behold the Thank Yous
This album started out as a seed of inspiration from a friend who told me quote "I rocked" unquote. I thought about it and agreed and decided to pursue my dream. When you listen to these songs, I hope they reminds you that your words can change someone's life. Thank you for changing mine, T.
This album could not have been made without the silent encouragement and support of all of you. If your name is not listed, take comfort in the following: If your name starts with any of the following letters, I am thinking of you and grateful for your help. A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z.
But really, it's hard to mention every single person who ever impacted my life, so please don't take it personally if your name is not mentioned. We're still cool, right????
My parents, Karen and Andy. Sue. Max. Bubby, Zaidy, Grandma. My Extended Family who shall not be listed individually in fear of offending a forgotten person. You know who you are.
Dee, Yael, Rivkah, and Shuie, my adopted family, who have given me a home, random nicknames, and hope.
My beloved friends who push me to go beyond myself, sometimes to my chagrin. Adriane, Shayna, Simone, Rivkah, Sarah, Elinor, Chavie, Shoshana, Sheva, Shprinza.
My powerful coworkers whose creativity never fails to amaze me.
Rivka P., your guest vocals (and comments) and percussion added a flavor I could never have added myself. Keep on Shining!
My mentors: Esme, Tori, Regina, Rachael, Frank, John, Mrs. E, Dr. E.
To the hypocrites, meanies, and self-righteous phonies, thank you for giving me such great material. Keep up the "good" work!
To the happy people at Sunny Foods Produce whose proud sponsorship of this album allowed me to sell out in style.
Viewers like You (and me), too cheap to send in money during the pledge drive.
If you are interested in obtaining a copy of Behold the Butterfly, post on this blog and I will get in touch with you.
This album could not have been made without the silent encouragement and support of all of you. If your name is not listed, take comfort in the following: If your name starts with any of the following letters, I am thinking of you and grateful for your help. A B C D E F G H I J K L M N O P Q R S T U V W X Y Z.
But really, it's hard to mention every single person who ever impacted my life, so please don't take it personally if your name is not mentioned. We're still cool, right????
My parents, Karen and Andy. Sue. Max. Bubby, Zaidy, Grandma. My Extended Family who shall not be listed individually in fear of offending a forgotten person. You know who you are.
Dee, Yael, Rivkah, and Shuie, my adopted family, who have given me a home, random nicknames, and hope.
My beloved friends who push me to go beyond myself, sometimes to my chagrin. Adriane, Shayna, Simone, Rivkah, Sarah, Elinor, Chavie, Shoshana, Sheva, Shprinza.
My powerful coworkers whose creativity never fails to amaze me.
Rivka P., your guest vocals (and comments) and percussion added a flavor I could never have added myself. Keep on Shining!
My mentors: Esme, Tori, Regina, Rachael, Frank, John, Mrs. E, Dr. E.
To the hypocrites, meanies, and self-righteous phonies, thank you for giving me such great material. Keep up the "good" work!
To the happy people at Sunny Foods Produce whose proud sponsorship of this album allowed me to sell out in style.
Viewers like You (and me), too cheap to send in money during the pledge drive.
If you are interested in obtaining a copy of Behold the Butterfly, post on this blog and I will get in touch with you.
Saturday, December 8, 2007
Iron Woman
Iron Woman knows how to assert herself and get the job done. She is not afraid to take risks and try new experiences. She once even stepped out on a limb and hung out with AU, but quickly decided that shiny things aren't necessarily the best friends to have. Despite a world that pushes her to be polite and genteel, she is outspoken and tough. She has to be in order to fight The Stapler who resides at Pumple Monkey Dishwasher Mall and terrorizes the citizens with his office supplies. She steps in when no one will and saves the day. Sometimes she even lets other people take the credit for her good work. However, she is not bitter or passive-aggressive; she's aggressive-aggressive and lets people know when they've gotten on her bad side. She isn't afraid to be herself and let her spirit shine, even if no one understands or they would rather not know the truth. Iron Woman tries to be a role model to the little elements who are just figuring out what they are made of. She hopes that they know that having spiky hair, awesome muscles, and superpowers are not Anti-Feminine attributes and that being different makes her special. Iron Woman knows her grace and beauty stem from the garlands of words from her friends, and she is eternally grateful. She wishes she could let each of them know the superpowers they each process, but that's the kind of thing you have to discover on your own. Until the time that they find the little radioactive spider within, she watches with wonder at the mysterious world that she is determined to heal and braces herself for another encounter with The Stapler.
Let the Purple
Sad Mr. Somebody said to the sun
Can’t keep this creature,
cost me my arm
Patience was pretty, perfect, and polite
I was the desert, dead but full of life
Oh, let the purple open your eyes
danger looks empty caught in surprise
I've got another whisper to tell
boys are dancing ‘round the wishing well
Ashes would fall before dawn broke
and liars would speak truth in their throats
desire is the fickle daughter of lust
casting nets for halos is never enough
Oh, let the purple open your eyes
danger looks empty caught in surprise
I've got another whisper to tell
boys are dancing ‘round the wishing well
And the light begins anew
purple being born
dazzling, spinning, weeping
no need for body’s warmth
but the mind, can’t survive
without the beating heart
you will find souls allied
by the colors we become
Oh, let the purple open your eyes
danger looks empty caught in surprise
I've got another whisper to tell
boys are dancing ‘round the wishing well
Can’t keep this creature,
cost me my arm
Patience was pretty, perfect, and polite
I was the desert, dead but full of life
Oh, let the purple open your eyes
danger looks empty caught in surprise
I've got another whisper to tell
boys are dancing ‘round the wishing well
Ashes would fall before dawn broke
and liars would speak truth in their throats
desire is the fickle daughter of lust
casting nets for halos is never enough
Oh, let the purple open your eyes
danger looks empty caught in surprise
I've got another whisper to tell
boys are dancing ‘round the wishing well
And the light begins anew
purple being born
dazzling, spinning, weeping
no need for body’s warmth
but the mind, can’t survive
without the beating heart
you will find souls allied
by the colors we become
Oh, let the purple open your eyes
danger looks empty caught in surprise
I've got another whisper to tell
boys are dancing ‘round the wishing well
Miss Blues's Child
Written By Langston Hughes
If the blues would let me,
L-rd knows I would smile.
If the blues would let me,
I would smile, smile, smile.
Instead of that I am cryin'
I must be Miss Blues's child.
You were my moon up in the sky
At night time my wishing star.
I love you, oh, I love you so
But you have gone so far!
Now my days are lonely,
And night-time drives me wild.
In my heart I'm crying,
I'm just Miss Blues's child!
If the blues would let me,
L-rd knows I would smile.
If the blues would let me,
I would smile, smile, smile.
Instead of that I am cryin'
I must be Miss Blues's child.
You were my moon up in the sky
At night time my wishing star.
I love you, oh, I love you so
But you have gone so far!
Now my days are lonely,
And night-time drives me wild.
In my heart I'm crying,
I'm just Miss Blues's child!
Life is Fine
Written by Langston Hughes
I went down to the river,
I set down on the bank.
I tried to think but couldn't,
So I jumped in and sank.
I came up once and hollered!
I came up twice and cried!
If that water hadn't a-been so cold
I might've sunk and died.
But it was cold in that water!
It was cold!
I took the elevator
Sixteen floors above the ground.
I thought about my baby
And thought I would jump down.
I stood there and I hollered!
I stood there and I cried!
If it hadn't a-been so high
I might've jumped and died.
But it was High up there!
It was high!
So since I'm still here livin',
I guess I will live on.
I could've died for love—
But for livin' I was born
And though you may hear me holler,
And you may see me cry—
I'll be dogged, sweet baby,
If you gonna see me die.
Life is fine! Fine as wine! Life is fine!
I went down to the river,
I set down on the bank.
I tried to think but couldn't,
So I jumped in and sank.
I came up once and hollered!
I came up twice and cried!
If that water hadn't a-been so cold
I might've sunk and died.
But it was cold in that water!
It was cold!
I took the elevator
Sixteen floors above the ground.
I thought about my baby
And thought I would jump down.
I stood there and I hollered!
I stood there and I cried!
If it hadn't a-been so high
I might've jumped and died.
But it was High up there!
It was high!
So since I'm still here livin',
I guess I will live on.
I could've died for love—
But for livin' I was born
And though you may hear me holler,
And you may see me cry—
I'll be dogged, sweet baby,
If you gonna see me die.
Life is fine! Fine as wine! Life is fine!
Too Cowardly (To be a Martyr)
You thought you were the only one who held it
Though I always shared your pain
You never let it out
You never mourned him
And then you went insane
In the house, in the house
The smell of blood remains
And the gunshot rings loudly in my brain
You were too cowardly to be a martyr
You were too cowardly to live without her
You run away and hide
From the inside
Far away from home, I feel so alone
I call you up to say, “Hi.”
I get the answering machine with the typical goodbye
“I didn’t want to live my life anymore.
So I quit.
And Lindsey, don’t be sad.
You know how much I missed my dad.”
Are you kidding me? Are you kidding me?
This can’t be happening.
This can’t be happening to me.
Don’t touch me now. I can’t bear it now.
You said you wanted to live, live
I thought you were stronger, stronger, than this
Chorus
We shared pain,
You said you would stay
She killed herself
The classic cliché
And now I’m alone
And it’s getting harder
I’m wondering if I’m strong enough to be –
To be a martyr
You were too cowardly to be a martyr
You were too cowardly to live without her
You ran away inside yourself
Didn’t think it would hurt anyone else
Look who’s crying now
Look who’s crying now
Look who’s crying now
I’m a martyr now
Smoke
The smell invades the room
the lights dim
anticipating electric shocks of pleasure within
going deep into your mind
for clarity and sanctity
believing that this will finally set you free
Take a deep breathe
little one
Don’t cry don’t scream
You’re in store for a wild machine
Chorus - So drink the smoke like champagne
dream of a world where there is no pain
don’t worry it’s all right
you’ll choke for a moment and we’ll turn on the lights
Superstar smiles and tears on cheeks
wisdom in nothing
oh life is so sweet
spinning in circles, looking around
beautiful wonderful fantastic sounds
Chorus
And you’ll choke
you’ll choke
won’t breathe
won’t see
the lights and the darkness
blurred in fire, choking on sweet desire
and you’ll choke, you’ll choke
won’t breathe
won’t be
losing yourself is so easy to do
when you’re covered in smoke
Take a deep breathe
little one
Don’t cry don’t scream
You’re in store for a wild machine
Smoke! Smoke! Smoke!
losing yourself is so easy to do when you’re drowning in smoke
the lights dim
anticipating electric shocks of pleasure within
going deep into your mind
for clarity and sanctity
believing that this will finally set you free
Take a deep breathe
little one
Don’t cry don’t scream
You’re in store for a wild machine
Chorus - So drink the smoke like champagne
dream of a world where there is no pain
don’t worry it’s all right
you’ll choke for a moment and we’ll turn on the lights
Superstar smiles and tears on cheeks
wisdom in nothing
oh life is so sweet
spinning in circles, looking around
beautiful wonderful fantastic sounds
Chorus
And you’ll choke
you’ll choke
won’t breathe
won’t see
the lights and the darkness
blurred in fire, choking on sweet desire
and you’ll choke, you’ll choke
won’t breathe
won’t be
losing yourself is so easy to do
when you’re covered in smoke
Take a deep breathe
little one
Don’t cry don’t scream
You’re in store for a wild machine
Smoke! Smoke! Smoke!
losing yourself is so easy to do when you’re drowning in smoke
Aidel Grrl
A relentless believer, she sheds tears over Rashis and witnesses miracles where there are none. She sponges up the ideals of her classmates and teachers, and forgets to sieve the dross. She makes plans for her spiritual growth and puts away detractors. After every bomb, she destroys another CD, hoping her little contribution will stop another disaster. Drinking guilt like mother' s milk, she processes her past. However, she does not feel bleak; instead she feels hopeful about her future in this sacred space. Her eyes are covered with rose-colored glasses and pretty wall-paper directives inform her decisions. She believes in the power of individuals and that everyone has a story. Her roommates make her feel powerful and she gradually comes out of her shell - only to step into a box. She is sometimes "oh, so bitter," but she is working on her relationship with her family from 7,000 miles away. (This probably makes it easier.) She knows she is not an angel, but she is reaching towards the heavens. At the end she writes a letter to herself, warning the Grrl that she will eventually fall and not to let skinned knees get her down. The letter never comes.
Daughter of G-d
She lives in a glorious palace
Servants meet her every need
And the ocean ripples for her
And music plays as she sleeps
And her Father, well, He adores her
Dresses her in gowns so fine
He says, “You’re my golden princess.
But you will forget in time.”
And she says . . .
No, Father, Father, I will not forget
Where I come from and who I am
I know I’m a princess, a daughter of G-d
I am cloaked in Your majesty
Your strength makes me go on
But as time passes, she grows weary
Of the splendor and the fame
The outer world is so appealing
All she wants to be is the same
And her Father, well, He adores her
So He lets her have her space
He says, “I will not desert you.”
As tears run down His face
And she said . . .
Chorus
And the Princess, she’s engulfed in pain
No one sees her inner beauty, all the see is her shame
And all she wants in the world is to see her father again
And as tears run down, He reaches for her hand
And she says . . .
No, Father, Father, I did not forget
You are always with me no matter how far I am
I know I’m a princess, a daughter of G-d
Though I threw off Your majesty,
I’m returning to Your arms
Servants meet her every need
And the ocean ripples for her
And music plays as she sleeps
And her Father, well, He adores her
Dresses her in gowns so fine
He says, “You’re my golden princess.
But you will forget in time.”
And she says . . .
No, Father, Father, I will not forget
Where I come from and who I am
I know I’m a princess, a daughter of G-d
I am cloaked in Your majesty
Your strength makes me go on
But as time passes, she grows weary
Of the splendor and the fame
The outer world is so appealing
All she wants to be is the same
And her Father, well, He adores her
So He lets her have her space
He says, “I will not desert you.”
As tears run down His face
And she said . . .
Chorus
And the Princess, she’s engulfed in pain
No one sees her inner beauty, all the see is her shame
And all she wants in the world is to see her father again
And as tears run down, He reaches for her hand
And she says . . .
No, Father, Father, I did not forget
You are always with me no matter how far I am
I know I’m a princess, a daughter of G-d
Though I threw off Your majesty,
I’m returning to Your arms
Where Angels Stand
High above in the heavens
In a place of beauty
angels sing His praises
as they raise their silver wings
So close to their Creator
They are surely filled with light
I wish I could see them better
In this cloud covered night
But I feel so low
I’m a broken shell
so far from You
So close to Hell
How can I be like Your special ones?
Tell me please I want to want, oh. . .
Chorus - Where angels stand
where darkness fades
cannot compare to the glory of days
when you sing your song
though they suppress your voice
and where angels stand
they have no choice
Down below in this world
in a place of gravity
humans sing His praises
as they fall to their knees
So close to their Creator
They feel His Presence near
I can see their true devotion
as I wipe away a tear
and I feel so high I’m a whole soul
the song they sing is now my own
I can be like Your special ones
I chose now to truly want
Chorus
In a place of beauty
angels sing His praises
as they raise their silver wings
So close to their Creator
They are surely filled with light
I wish I could see them better
In this cloud covered night
But I feel so low
I’m a broken shell
so far from You
So close to Hell
How can I be like Your special ones?
Tell me please I want to want, oh. . .
Chorus - Where angels stand
where darkness fades
cannot compare to the glory of days
when you sing your song
though they suppress your voice
and where angels stand
they have no choice
Down below in this world
in a place of gravity
humans sing His praises
as they fall to their knees
So close to their Creator
They feel His Presence near
I can see their true devotion
as I wipe away a tear
and I feel so high I’m a whole soul
the song they sing is now my own
I can be like Your special ones
I chose now to truly want
Chorus
The Wholeness of a Broken Heart
A broken heart has no wings to fly
It’s tied down by the sorrows
that you cry
Has no strength, can’t go on with life
But a broken heart can be filled with light
And I want to be complete
but sometimes I’m so Empty
All I need is a dream
and I’ll be free
Chorus - There’s nothing as whole as a broken heart
Turn to G-d in prayer as the pain starts
Ha'rofai l'sheburay lev
He will hear your voice and heal your heart again
A stained soul that’s shattered by mist
You’re unaware of the beauty it’s missed
Lost in a world where it can’t be seen
But a stained soul can always be cleaned
And I want to be...
There’s nothing as whole as a broken heart
Turn to G-d in prayer as the pain starts
V'yamul et levavchem
He will hear your voice and heal your heart again
And I’m clinging desperately to You
My heart is breaking in two
and suddenly I understand
Ki col levavos doresh HaShem
You see into me, I’m transparent as can be
No facade to hide my desires
You know my being
Parts I hide from seeing
Please yachad lavev l'yirah shimecha
Make one my heart to fear Your Name
I don’t want to stay the same
I don’t want to stay the Same!
Chorus I and II
Hu yishema colchen v'rofai levavchen ode pam
He will hear your voice and heal your heart again
NOTE: Please forgive me for my poor transliteration. I did my best but it's hard to convey the same sounds, but hey, the italics made it look special.
It’s tied down by the sorrows
that you cry
Has no strength, can’t go on with life
But a broken heart can be filled with light
And I want to be complete
but sometimes I’m so Empty
All I need is a dream
and I’ll be free
Chorus - There’s nothing as whole as a broken heart
Turn to G-d in prayer as the pain starts
Ha'rofai l'sheburay lev
He will hear your voice and heal your heart again
A stained soul that’s shattered by mist
You’re unaware of the beauty it’s missed
Lost in a world where it can’t be seen
But a stained soul can always be cleaned
And I want to be...
There’s nothing as whole as a broken heart
Turn to G-d in prayer as the pain starts
V'yamul et levavchem
He will hear your voice and heal your heart again
And I’m clinging desperately to You
My heart is breaking in two
and suddenly I understand
Ki col levavos doresh HaShem
You see into me, I’m transparent as can be
No facade to hide my desires
You know my being
Parts I hide from seeing
Please yachad lavev l'yirah shimecha
Make one my heart to fear Your Name
I don’t want to stay the same
I don’t want to stay the Same!
Chorus I and II
Hu yishema colchen v'rofai levavchen ode pam
He will hear your voice and heal your heart again
NOTE: Please forgive me for my poor transliteration. I did my best but it's hard to convey the same sounds, but hey, the italics made it look special.
6,000,000 Hearts
the other night,
i was looking the sky
i saw a light
and it made me cry
i thought it was a planet or a star
but as it turns out,
it was my heart
it had flown up into a cloud
and by the time i noticed
i couldn’t pull it down
it went spinning silently in space
and couldn’t be seen
by the entire human race
i flew up to catch my heart
but it just crumbled apart
there was nothing i could do
and now my heart is a part of you
and in my soul, i feel a loss
for the six million hearts it had cost
never forget, always remember
that a heart lives forever
i was looking the sky
i saw a light
and it made me cry
i thought it was a planet or a star
but as it turns out,
it was my heart
it had flown up into a cloud
and by the time i noticed
i couldn’t pull it down
it went spinning silently in space
and couldn’t be seen
by the entire human race
i flew up to catch my heart
but it just crumbled apart
there was nothing i could do
and now my heart is a part of you
and in my soul, i feel a loss
for the six million hearts it had cost
never forget, always remember
that a heart lives forever
Watermelon
My flawed soul shrieks within me
calling out to be cleansed
i hear the chants of holy men
but no emotion penetrates this skin
so i wander through a maze
obstacles of desire in my way
and in my dreams i see the face
of the hidden thoughts they praise
so i withdraw from the world
and the touch of human flesh
and i question who i am I'm a frozen crying wreck
Chorus - But if i could spit out these seeds of rage,
if i could see with my heart
if i could find myself within this cage
if i could paint spiritual art
then i would be ... a watermelon, baby
i would be a watermelon, baby
sweetness within the pain
and all these seeds of sin
i would spit them out to be washed away by the rain,
if i could be a watermelon, baby, I'd be saved
i call myself euphoria
she’s the optimism in me
but this Jane is too strong for her,
she’s my cynicism set free
and there’s no Ricky to show my beauty
that makes my light shine cuz all i see is darkness
the insanity within my mind
willing tragedy to stop the pain
I'm a mass of contradictions
the blood that i once feared
i imagine with conviction
Chorus
There is no black and white
I feel just like a fallen angel
thrown from heaven’s love
but if i open myself at all
will beauty fill my soul?
the colors are all i have
calling out to be cleansed
i hear the chants of holy men
but no emotion penetrates this skin
so i wander through a maze
obstacles of desire in my way
and in my dreams i see the face
of the hidden thoughts they praise
so i withdraw from the world
and the touch of human flesh
and i question who i am I'm a frozen crying wreck
Chorus - But if i could spit out these seeds of rage,
if i could see with my heart
if i could find myself within this cage
if i could paint spiritual art
then i would be ... a watermelon, baby
i would be a watermelon, baby
sweetness within the pain
and all these seeds of sin
i would spit them out to be washed away by the rain,
if i could be a watermelon, baby, I'd be saved
i call myself euphoria
she’s the optimism in me
but this Jane is too strong for her,
she’s my cynicism set free
and there’s no Ricky to show my beauty
that makes my light shine cuz all i see is darkness
the insanity within my mind
willing tragedy to stop the pain
I'm a mass of contradictions
the blood that i once feared
i imagine with conviction
Chorus
There is no black and white
I feel just like a fallen angel
thrown from heaven’s love
but if i open myself at all
will beauty fill my soul?
the colors are all i have
Tiger
I found religion on the back a cereal box
The flashy color slogan shouting at me
Saying I can be great
g-g-g-great
but I’m not so sure
I’m not a tiger
Chorus – & I’m losing clarity into stoicism
Appealing before the King
Asking to forgive my insanity, my insecurity
Fortune’s fear never leaves me
Tortured by myself
Tell m, oh tell me, I can be a Tiger
Tiger, let my strength come out in the wild, in the wild
Claw my soul and let my spirit shine
Tiger, where are you going?
I am trapped in the vines, I am trapped in the vines
I’ve made a shrine to all the deities
that make me lose myself
binding me to the tracks of desire
I always wanted to be a martyr
& I am offering my soul on a plate
to be dissected into dust
and the gods of holy waste
are all made of sainted rust
Chorus
On this holy day I open myself up
And kneel before You
And the blast of the horn calls me to its breath
Telling me I can be recreated as a Dreamer, as a Tiger, as a Tiger!
Tiger, letting my strength open
I’m not afraid of myself
I can be who I am
I’m a Tiger again, I’m a Tiger again
The flashy color slogan shouting at me
Saying I can be great
g-g-g-great
but I’m not so sure
I’m not a tiger
Chorus – & I’m losing clarity into stoicism
Appealing before the King
Asking to forgive my insanity, my insecurity
Fortune’s fear never leaves me
Tortured by myself
Tell m, oh tell me, I can be a Tiger
Tiger, let my strength come out in the wild, in the wild
Claw my soul and let my spirit shine
Tiger, where are you going?
I am trapped in the vines, I am trapped in the vines
I’ve made a shrine to all the deities
that make me lose myself
binding me to the tracks of desire
I always wanted to be a martyr
& I am offering my soul on a plate
to be dissected into dust
and the gods of holy waste
are all made of sainted rust
Chorus
On this holy day I open myself up
And kneel before You
And the blast of the horn calls me to its breath
Telling me I can be recreated as a Dreamer, as a Tiger, as a Tiger!
Tiger, letting my strength open
I’m not afraid of myself
I can be who I am
I’m a Tiger again, I’m a Tiger again
Bubble
An underwater existence
A bubble of truth
Can’t feel the distance
Between me and you
Treading through waters
Never tasted before
Yes, I’ve floundered
But I’m strong at the core
Chorus
And now I’m at the end
Must return to dry land
Like a fish out of its element
Don’t want to descend
Keep me in this Bubble for eternity
Don’t wanna be the old me
Let me feel sheltered, let me feel free
To really be who I wanna be
The sea parts
Miracles unveil
See with my heart
Never was able
Droplets of change
Fall from the skies
I’ll never be the same
You’ve opened my eyes
Chorus
And though the storm has come, I will not drown
I won’t let it bring me down
I am ready to fight for all that I’ve found
The strands of truth that you have wound in me
Chorus
A bubble of truth
Can’t feel the distance
Between me and you
Treading through waters
Never tasted before
Yes, I’ve floundered
But I’m strong at the core
Chorus
And now I’m at the end
Must return to dry land
Like a fish out of its element
Don’t want to descend
Keep me in this Bubble for eternity
Don’t wanna be the old me
Let me feel sheltered, let me feel free
To really be who I wanna be
The sea parts
Miracles unveil
See with my heart
Never was able
Droplets of change
Fall from the skies
I’ll never be the same
You’ve opened my eyes
Chorus
And though the storm has come, I will not drown
I won’t let it bring me down
I am ready to fight for all that I’ve found
The strands of truth that you have wound in me
Chorus
The Butterfly
She's been squashed, silenced, broken, and boxed. Her voice has been replaced with complacency and people-pleasing. But she's a Superhero and doesn't take that nonsense easily. Using her gallant heart (and five inch heels) she fights the Evil Forces of prejudice, hatred, and cruelty. Together with Eagle, Lion, and Dolphin, she is unstoppable. The friendships she establishes last beyond wars and hazy memories. Following her heart sometimes gets her in trouble and makes others doubt her, but she is confident enough to ignore their criticism and unfair judgements. Furthermore, her kindness brings enemies close to generate peace. When the world becomes too chaotic, she simply lifts herself above the clouds to view the world as it once was. In this space, she is able to see the possibilities and tranquility fills her mind. And of course, she returns to fight another day on Earth.
Friday, December 7, 2007
Holy
Holy
Chorus
Who’s to say who’s to say what’s holy
Who’s to say who’s to say what’s holy
If you know all there is know at 21
Then life is not worth living
I was directed by a living saint
who told me I was a fake
He called Harry a prig
and I surely believed in him
Oh, how can you resist cobblestone streets that wind you down?
In this ancient town we forgot how to think
Chorus
Paint my mother on an envelope
Let her be sent to Mexico
Saturday cartoons with anvils falling
Cigarette smoke darkens the ceiling
Oh, how you can deny when he tells you he will die?
In his broken home we forgot to pay the rent
Chorus
Naïve girls in a protected shell
If only Venus looked so well
Messiahs are queuing up in heaven
Each with a glossy 8x10
Oh, how can you believe in salvation through disease?
In this lonely space we forgot to bring the wood
Chorus
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
Angels and devils on the side of the road
Clamoring for clarity
But holiness - is an elusive beast
Chorus
Who’s to say who’s to say what’s holy
Who’s to say who’s to say what’s holy
If you know all there is know at 21
Then life is not worth living
I was directed by a living saint
who told me I was a fake
He called Harry a prig
and I surely believed in him
Oh, how can you resist cobblestone streets that wind you down?
In this ancient town we forgot how to think
Chorus
Paint my mother on an envelope
Let her be sent to Mexico
Saturday cartoons with anvils falling
Cigarette smoke darkens the ceiling
Oh, how you can deny when he tells you he will die?
In his broken home we forgot to pay the rent
Chorus
Naïve girls in a protected shell
If only Venus looked so well
Messiahs are queuing up in heaven
Each with a glossy 8x10
Oh, how can you believe in salvation through disease?
In this lonely space we forgot to bring the wood
Chorus
Holy, holy, holy
Holy, holy, holy
Angels and devils on the side of the road
Clamoring for clarity
But holiness - is an elusive beast
Thursday, December 6, 2007
The Way I Am
Buried in the corners of my mind
pretending that I’m just fine
I sit - waiting for you to cross the line
Smile upon the face of a serene nut case
Yes, I’m stable but only for now
Inside I’m churning
Inside I’m yearning
Inside I’m burning - with fear
Outside I’m happy
Outside I’m living
Outside I’m drowning - in my tears
I could walk away and fall
I could stand tall and crawl
I could anything and nothing
I could lose my heart in love
and never touch
It’s just the way
just the way I am
You never know what I really am
I’m just little Marianne
I’m a person that I can’t stand
Blanketed by the guise of these faithful eyes
Yes, I’m stable but only for now
Chorus
Very soon you’ll see what I means to be me
Standing tall when the world knocks you off your feet
Loving him enough to keep your distance
and walking away from those harmful friends
You could .... just the way we all are .. inside
pretending that I’m just fine
I sit - waiting for you to cross the line
Smile upon the face of a serene nut case
Yes, I’m stable but only for now
Inside I’m churning
Inside I’m yearning
Inside I’m burning - with fear
Outside I’m happy
Outside I’m living
Outside I’m drowning - in my tears
I could walk away and fall
I could stand tall and crawl
I could anything and nothing
I could lose my heart in love
and never touch
It’s just the way
just the way I am
You never know what I really am
I’m just little Marianne
I’m a person that I can’t stand
Blanketed by the guise of these faithful eyes
Yes, I’m stable but only for now
Chorus
Very soon you’ll see what I means to be me
Standing tall when the world knocks you off your feet
Loving him enough to keep your distance
and walking away from those harmful friends
You could .... just the way we all are .. inside
So far in2 the Dream
We make dreams of our lives
thinking somehow love can be revived
hoping that the spark won’t fizzle
We make dreams of our souls
thinking we’ll never go that low
hoping that the spark still glows
So Far into the dream
Now I’ve gone too far
Now I’ve made my heart an open road
I bear the scars of a girl who lost control
and all the stars they tell me where to go
and in my heart I have been swallowed
So far into the dream
So far - into the dream
Chorus - So far into the dream
I’ve been building in time
The sane asylum I saw in your - your eyes
But inside the dream, there’s no wings to fly
All that I believed shattering inside
So far into the dream
So far into the dream
I’ve made to be my connection to the soul
I’ve finally seen my long lost home
and you’ve made me into a girl who felt whole
Thought I was free
Life can be so unknown
So far into the dream
Chorus
But I’m so far from where I imagined I’d be
Lost in a desert of madness, falling into false dreams
oh, you know you’ve gone so far - from these dreams
but when you’re low, the only way to go
is higher than you used to be
higher than you used to be... so far into the dream
thinking somehow love can be revived
hoping that the spark won’t fizzle
We make dreams of our souls
thinking we’ll never go that low
hoping that the spark still glows
So Far into the dream
Now I’ve gone too far
Now I’ve made my heart an open road
I bear the scars of a girl who lost control
and all the stars they tell me where to go
and in my heart I have been swallowed
So far into the dream
So far - into the dream
Chorus - So far into the dream
I’ve been building in time
The sane asylum I saw in your - your eyes
But inside the dream, there’s no wings to fly
All that I believed shattering inside
So far into the dream
So far into the dream
I’ve made to be my connection to the soul
I’ve finally seen my long lost home
and you’ve made me into a girl who felt whole
Thought I was free
Life can be so unknown
So far into the dream
Chorus
But I’m so far from where I imagined I’d be
Lost in a desert of madness, falling into false dreams
oh, you know you’ve gone so far - from these dreams
but when you’re low, the only way to go
is higher than you used to be
higher than you used to be... so far into the dream
Silent All The Years
Written by Tori Amos
Excuse me but can I be you for a while
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah I can hear that
Been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know
But nothing comes
Yes I know what you think of me
You never shut-up
Yeah I can hear that
But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent All These Years
So you found a girl
Who thinks really deep thougts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts
Boy you best praya that I bleed real soon
How's that thought for you
My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think there's a heaven
Where some screams have gone
I got 25 bucks and a cracker
Do you think it's enough
To get us there
Cause what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent All These...
Years go by
Will I still be waiting
For somebody else to understand
Years go by
If I'm stripped of my beauty
And the orange clouds
Raining in head
Years go by
Will I choke on my tears
Till finally there is nothing left
One more casualty
You know we're too easy Easy Easy
Well I love the way we communicate
Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
Let's hear what you think of me now
But baby don't look up
The sky is falling
Your mother shows up in a nasty dress
It's your turn now to stand where I stand
Everybody lookin' at you here
Take hold of my hand
Yeah I can hear them
But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice [x3]
And it's been here
Silent All These Years
I've been here
Silent All These Year
Tori is an incredible songwriter and musician who has taken the poison in her life and made it into strength for others. This song changed her life and expresses how completely someone can become silenced. It is one of my favorite songs of her's.
Excuse me but can I be you for a while
My dog won't bite if you sit real still
I got the anti-Christ in the kitchen yellin' at me again
Yeah I can hear that
Been saved again by the garbage truck
I got something to say you know
But nothing comes
Yes I know what you think of me
You never shut-up
Yeah I can hear that
But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent All These Years
So you found a girl
Who thinks really deep thougts
What's so amazing about really deep thoughts
Boy you best praya that I bleed real soon
How's that thought for you
My scream got lost in a paper cup
You think there's a heaven
Where some screams have gone
I got 25 bucks and a cracker
Do you think it's enough
To get us there
Cause what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice
And it's been here
Silent All These...
Years go by
Will I still be waiting
For somebody else to understand
Years go by
If I'm stripped of my beauty
And the orange clouds
Raining in head
Years go by
Will I choke on my tears
Till finally there is nothing left
One more casualty
You know we're too easy Easy Easy
Well I love the way we communicate
Your eyes focus on my funny lip shape
Let's hear what you think of me now
But baby don't look up
The sky is falling
Your mother shows up in a nasty dress
It's your turn now to stand where I stand
Everybody lookin' at you here
Take hold of my hand
Yeah I can hear them
But what if I'm a mermaid
In these jeans of his
With her name still on it
Hey but I don't care
Cause sometimes
I said sometimes
I hear my voice [x3]
And it's been here
Silent All These Years
I've been here
Silent All These Year
Tori is an incredible songwriter and musician who has taken the poison in her life and made it into strength for others. This song changed her life and expresses how completely someone can become silenced. It is one of my favorite songs of her's.
You Can't Rely on Fingernails
You can rely on religion
Or government if you please
You can rely on sunshine
Or even the Calabrese
You can rely on mail
In rain or shine or snow
You can rely on boy scouts
To say a friendly hello
But you can’t rely on fingernails
They’ll tell you to sod off
And just when you need them,
They’ll toss a Molotov
You can’t rely on fingernails
To stay pretty and clean
But you can rely on me
You can rely on taxes
They’ll be here every year
You can rely on Hollywood
To fill your mind with fear
You can rely on shadows
To follow you around
You can rely on car keys
To remain unfound
But you can’t rely on fingernails
They’ll tell you to sod off
And just when you need them,
They’ll toss a Molotov
You can’t rely on fingernails
To stay pretty and clean
But you can rely on me
Fingernails don’t care
If you’re in pain
Fingernails don’t mind
If you lose the page
Of a great book
you’ve
Been reading for a week
OUCH!
Fingernails don’t care
When you’re strumming
And you can’t rely on fingernails
They’ll break and be chewed
You have to admit that
They are ever so rude
You can’t rely on fingernails
To get you through your day
But you can rely on me
This song was inspired by my apartment mate, Sheva, whose random comment proved her wisdom beyond her years. Furthermore, she helped get me out of a serious bout of Writer's Block. I think the message of finding people who you can trust is an important one. I also have to give props to my Creative Writing classmates and Mr. Sanchez who helped workshop this piece and I think really brought out its true colors. I just love the sound of the word, "Calabrese." Just don't ask me to find Calabria on a map . . .
Or government if you please
You can rely on sunshine
Or even the Calabrese
You can rely on mail
In rain or shine or snow
You can rely on boy scouts
To say a friendly hello
But you can’t rely on fingernails
They’ll tell you to sod off
And just when you need them,
They’ll toss a Molotov
You can’t rely on fingernails
To stay pretty and clean
But you can rely on me
You can rely on taxes
They’ll be here every year
You can rely on Hollywood
To fill your mind with fear
You can rely on shadows
To follow you around
You can rely on car keys
To remain unfound
But you can’t rely on fingernails
They’ll tell you to sod off
And just when you need them,
They’ll toss a Molotov
You can’t rely on fingernails
To stay pretty and clean
But you can rely on me
Fingernails don’t care
If you’re in pain
Fingernails don’t mind
If you lose the page
Of a great book
you’ve
Been reading for a week
OUCH!
Fingernails don’t care
When you’re strumming
And you can’t rely on fingernails
They’ll break and be chewed
You have to admit that
They are ever so rude
You can’t rely on fingernails
To get you through your day
But you can rely on me
This song was inspired by my apartment mate, Sheva, whose random comment proved her wisdom beyond her years. Furthermore, she helped get me out of a serious bout of Writer's Block. I think the message of finding people who you can trust is an important one. I also have to give props to my Creative Writing classmates and Mr. Sanchez who helped workshop this piece and I think really brought out its true colors. I just love the sound of the word, "Calabrese." Just don't ask me to find Calabria on a map . . .
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